#116: Hitting Rock Bottom

Things haven’t been going my way for some time. I did manage to push it a bit lower, though.

This is my laptop, one of the two I use. I managed to drown both of them today. Not just the laptops, also the tablet. The “milky”style of the photograph gives you a sense of the state of the tablet. It continues to be usable, which is already not too bad as it allows me to write this. The laptop on the picture doesn’t show any sign of life. It is dead.

It is not the end of the world. Lots of people are facing challenges x times bigger than what this represents for me. Everything can be replaced. It is just dead matter anyway.

So the question isn’t how bad it really is, because it isn’t if you look at it objectively. What is interesting even for me is how I deal with the situation. All I can say is that I am struggling. It feels like yet another sign that my life is out of balance. That sounds like a really big thing, doesn’t it?

What about bad luck? An accumulation of unfortunate events?

Rock bottom. Everything will get better… starting from tomorrow. I have it in my own hands to make tomorrow a better day than today. No need for it to become the “best day of my life”. Let me try to make it a better day. Good enough from where I am today.

Damn it.

Stop it.

Noted.

I am grateful for my health, the love of my life, my children and the many opportunities I have. The momentum will shift again. I know.

It starts with me.