#15: Broken Trust

Trust is such a fragile thing, isn’t it?

I found this rock on a beach on the northern coast of Spain during my Camino pilgrimage in 2012. By the time I made it home again, the rock was broken. It takes force to break a rock. It continues to sit on my desk as a reminder of a unique experience. Whenever I will return to complete the final 200km of my journey, the rock will come with me. In two pieces.

Trust seems more fragile than a rock. It takes time to build, evolve and solidify.

So what is most dangerous to trust? Words are. So are actions.

I have been hurt by words. A trustworthy relationship appears broken. It got me thinking whether the position I had taken towards other people was warranted in the first place.

Most importantly, I have been feeling paralyzed for the last two days. I have had a headache and no energy to focus on whatever I had in mind. It hit me hard.

The feeling of safety is gone.

I need to break my thought pattern. Now.

Acknowledging it. Accepting it. Sharing it.

And moving on.