#29: Control

The remote control can give you a false sense of control. Imagine the scenario whereby the batteries run out and you have no spare ones. Starting to get concerned?

Rightly so.

There was a time when I wondered what I had control over. What came to mind where my breath and my attitude.

I was perfectly fine with that. Happy even.

Everything else, I would just deal with.

Now that I am struggling with sleep, I am starting to worry.

My appetite and my ability to sleep were my fellow companions. Anywhere. Almost anytime.

Worry doesn’t describe it well enough. I feel scared.

I am still negotiating what my attitude towards my situation should be.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Not yet falling asleep, but I am positive I will. At some point.

Hey, it looks like I have found my attitude.

Positivity.